Have you ever had that feeling of being tired, tired of doing the same things without the effect you desire? A few days ago it hit be like a brick, while I’m continuing to move forward, I was just tired of running the race. I needed a break from the Rat Race. In a few of my other posts I may have mentioned that I’m single, and that I’m also struggling to figure out what to do for a career. The past rear has been great spiritually, I’ve made a lot of progress in finding myself, and becoming a better man. I feel much more prepared to one day be a husband and father. With all my progress it dawned on me that in a few month it would have been 2 years since I was in a Relationship. I’ll be the first person to tell you to take YOUR time, don’t let anyone else tell you when’s a good time to move on. But I couldn’t help thinking, wow has that much time passed already. I also celebrated by 34th Birthday a few weeks ago, and while I’m on a path, I don’t have a clear picture of my destination. I have a job that has a potential of becoming a career, but it’s also not part of my vision for myself. So in a nutshell, both of these realizations hit me all at once, I’m so not where I’d like to be. You’d think that this would have sent me into a tail spin of depression, but a few days later, I’m actually very hopeful. The past year has thought me one thing for sure, I always have what I need when I need it. I just need to tap into it. So today I’d like to share with you why I’m still in a great mood, after I realized that I’m not as close to my dreams as I’d like to be.
I’m blessed with certain Gifts by my Creator, because I’m ME!
Living my the mantra, I’m where I need to be, has served me well. Last year around this time, I began to move towards figuring out myself, and what my purpose was. I took a course through my church that helped me to figure out what my Spiritual Gifts were. It was interesting that I took a few Personality Inventories that I was already familiar with from my Undergraduate studies, but I had never made the connection before this. Understanding how I could give back to others helped me with my focus. I also learnt my gift at just the right time, I was able to help close friends through their various break-ups. Through my relationship woes, I began to focus on how people behaved, and tried to find keys to have a better relationship. If it wasn’t for my relationship problems it would never had been my focus. I’m blessed with the gifts I have because I’m me, and those gifts serve ME well. My gifts aren’t something abstract, they are rather part of me.
Do what works, continue to do it even if it hasn’t paid off yet!
“One must, from time to time, attempt things that are beyond one’s capacity. The pain passes but the beauty remains” – Pierre Auguste Renoir
I never knew that the famous Painter Renoir suffered from severe arthritis, so much so that his hands were deformed, yet he continued to make beautiful works of art. Would you have done the same, given his severe handicap and excruciating pain, why go on? When I think of my current struggles in finding a career that’s right for me, this gives me inspiration. Sure I might not be where I think I should be, but that doesn’t mean I’m not where I need to be right now. With each passing moment I learn new things about myself, I learn what I’m capable of and what my limits are. Those are valuable traits to learn when you want to invest time into a career. While I’m not in that career now, it doesn’t mean that I’m not going to get it eventually. I’m in a good place, I know how I can help others, and even though it’s just on a small scale right now, I don’t know what the future holds. Today I went for a Hike/Run (meaning that I run unless it’s a very steep climb, then I hike), there was a point where I wanted to stop all together, it was yet another steep incline. Although my muscles felt tired and tight, I kept going, then eventually I began to pick up speed again. Before I knew it I was running at my normal pace, it seemed that I was even picking up speed. This reminds me of life, sure sometimes you want to stop, to quit, but if you can push through, soon you’ll be running again. The steep climb that you were experiencing is behind you, you don’t even think of it anymore.
“Maybe we are not supposed to find the pieces. Maybe we are the pieces.” – Peter Sollett
In another post I was reading Labels and Independence, while this talks specifically about relationships, I found worth in this statement. Instead of looking for what we need out there, as in I’m going to find the perfect career, I’m going to find the person that makes me complete. We should start looking from within, start with what you’re good at, or perhaps find something about your current job that you like. Then make that something that you focus on, and find ways to improve it. Similarly with relationships, start with yourself, don’t look to someone else to define or make you whole. Sure we want to find a partner that enhances who we are, but we should be able to define ourselves without someone else. This week was easier than last week for me, I made a small change to by daily routine. I made it a point to incorporate something I love doing into each day. There’s something satisfying in knowing that I helped someone solve a problem, or made their life better. So each day I would try to write a comment to at least one post I read, and it did improve my overall mood. Despite what was going on at my job, I was still doing something that made me happy.
May your week be filled with joy, peace and love. I hope that we can all continue to run the race, even though you might want to give up, keep going you’ll find your pace again. Also I hope that you recognize that you already possess everything you need to succeed. The people and resources you need now are already in front of you, it’s just a matter of tapping into them.